Tonight as I sat with my partner enjoying the calm end of the day, I realized that it had been a very long time since Leona went to sleep. She never slept this long at this time, so I went to wake her. Looking down at her she seemed lifeless, though concerned I let it pass, brushing her cheeks to detect movement. Nothing. Moving her shoulder, nudging her to wake, she lay motionless. Frantic and terrified I moved her more, to my relief she moved. Still I was concerned that she had not awakened, I picked up her tiny little body and held her close, waking her gently. I have never felt such fear as I did in that moment, and I fear I will experience many more throughout her young life. How bitter sweet the love between parent and child is, lingering in the tiniest nooks of our soul. It is both a gift and a curse, mingling emotions floating about within, binding us while tearing us apart. We are left to guard our young while left defenseless, what a beautiful thing it is. So strange it almost alludes us, yet we hold in us the most powerful gift of all, we hold the gift of life.
Monday, May 2, 2011
It's been so long since I've posted on this blog, silly how I am starting a new one. Though I will update a few times a month on here. Leona is a beautiful, healthy, intelligent baby girl! She is now 4 months old, and growing so fast as babies do. I dote on her, as does everyone around her, she is so vibrant for so young! We couldn't have asked for more, and we cherish every moment, showering her with love. Recently we bought her a wonderful toy called 'Sophie' who is a giraffe. Leona loves her very much, Sophie is a grreat teether and is the perfect size for baby hands. We also got her 'My Pal Scout' by Leap Frog, another amazing toy. Except that Scout can be programed to interact with Leona through song and speech. Teaching her to count and learn animal sounds ect. He plays lullabies also, all music is selected by you through a program called 'connect'. We have him set to call her 'Munchkin' just like we do.
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